A Mother's Utopia

I have the joy and honor of having lunch with my (as she herself put it) soul sister.  What a lovely reality that I have found my soul sister.  She has lived many years beyond me and has experienced so many things and she shares her knowledge with me in such loving ways.  I can talk to her about anything and she is always there for me, never judging yet loving me.  I am so blessed to have such an amazing woman in my life.  

As I mentioned yesterday I had my post op checkup, I have been feeling pretty good and came back to work this past Monday, 11 days after my hystorectomy.  He was not happy with me, at all.  He said he did not sign off consent for me to go back to work and that I needed to take it easy for 4-6 weeks.  I expressed that I have a pretty low key job and I don't do any lifting and that I pretty much sit at a desk. P.S. I LOVE my Job and my Boss!!!  Long story short I am at work and I will be taking it easy and he will sign off in 4 weeks that I am healthy and able to resume normal activities.  What's a girl to do...  My second appointment of the day was with my therapist and it went great.  She was proud of the things I have accomplished over the past few months and was happy to see that I was ready to get involved in my recovery.  One huge piece of my life has been unstuffed and dealt with, now to move on to the next.  Always remember 1 ...

Today is one of those days where my mind is just wandering randomly and I can't focus on anything.  I took my meds and drank my coffee, but yet there is no drive or desire to accomplish anything.  It could be the fact that I had a hystorectomy 13 days ago and my body is trying to adjust to the lack of hormones but I just feel bla.  I actually feel sad, frustrated, lonely and overwhelmed.  My heart aches for something, but what?  I have my post op appointment today, and we are going to talk about hormone replacement therapy, but with endometreosis as bad as I have it, I have decided against it.  Today is also my first therapy session in over 3 months and I am excited yet nervous about it.  I want to go in and tell her what I have accomplished in the past week with my mother (which is HUGE), but I don't look forward to opening up and talking about the hurts and things that are not going well in my life.  I did learn from my last group of s...