A Mother's Utopia

Inner Strength - your survival instinct...  I am so Thankful that I have inner strength, the drive and determination that comes out at that last possible second when you think you have nothing left in you. I am a pretty stubborn person and I won't "allow" things to come crashing down and take away my spirit, I just keep trucking on and on and on like the energizer bunny. Something gets in my way and I either plow right through it like a linebacker or I stuff it down inside and try to deal with it later.  I have to say with my current situation I have taken the bull by the horns and just done what needs to be done as far as getting a place of my own and taking on the bills etc, but the emotional side of it I have stuffed deep down inside of me and it keeps trying to rear it's ugly head the past couple of days.  I am sad about the separation and about how things have turned out, it breaks my heart.  But you go on, I have learned to let go of things.  I am in cont...

Today I am Thankful for strength.  It seems like an odd thing to think of to be thankful for, but today that is what comes to mind.  I am Thankful that I have the strength to move on and move forward in my life even when I am dealt a tough hand.  I am Thankful for the strength God has given me to get through these tough situations and that I haven't given up on life like I have had the inclination to do in the past.  I have shown myself that I am a strong and courageous woman and I can handle so much more than I give myself credit for.  I have the strength and make the choice to wake up, and once I have had my coffee, put a smile on my face and be grateful I am here another day.  I am woman, hear me roar!

Today I am Thankful for the ability to forgive.  Many people just don't seem to have this ability or they find it very difficult to forgive those that have hurt or wronged them.  I know I have been hurt a lot and holding on to that hurt doesn't do me any good, it is actually unhealthy to hold on to it.  It seems to me that those people that forgive and move on tend to have more peace within them and I for one want to be at peace.  These days I try not to hold grudges and move on fairly quickly.  Can one forgive too quickly?  There are some issues from my childhood that I have held on to until just recently and learned to forgive and it has helped the relationship to grow and change into a healthy friendship.  If I could move on from that, then I can forgive, move on and transform my end of any relationship!  P.S.  I have to throw in a funny Thankful ~ I think many women out there are Thankful that they have a womens...

I am Thankful every morning when I wake up and realize the Lord has given me the gift of another day to improve on yesterday and hopefully be used to make someone else’s day a little bit brighter.

This week I am Thankful for Life's Challenges, for helping me grow and become who I am today.  I have been through so much in the short time I have been around and going through all of those challenges, especially the hard core and devastating things, has made me the strong and compassionate woman I am today.

Today I have to say I am Thankful for the amazingly smart scientists/chemists and doctors and nurses that work so hard to make and prescribe medicine.  I know it sounds strange, but if I didn't have the medicine available to me that I take on a daily basis, I don't know what kind of person I would be or where I would be.  Untreated Bipolar can lead to a very dysfunctional and destructive lifestyle and untreated ADD can cause many problems at work due to lack of focus and attention to detail and menopause at 34, no thank you!  Because of my medicine and my determination I have a great job that I am able to keep, I have 4 children that I can raise and I have a life I am proud to live.  I am also thankful for the health insurance I have through my work because the medicines I take are expensive with insurance, I can't imagine them without it!  So THANK YOU to those of you in the medical field that work so hard everyday to help people like me to ...

Today I want to express my thankfulness for my friends.  I am blessed beyond words with amazing friends.  Some friends that I talk to on a daily basis, some I talk to once every couple of weeks when we meet for lunch and others that I never get to talk to but I know they are there and they bless me with their thoughts and prayers.  My friends love me and accept me for who I am and they don't expect anything out of me in return.  They just want me to be happy!  Imagine that, someone wants me to be happy!  My friends don't point out my imperfections, they will call me out on my crap or throw down the BS flag if needed, but they are whole hearted, sincere and loving when they do it.  They don't expect me to change who I am to suit their needs and are around when I truly need someone to talk to.  Even when I try to distance myself from the world and them, they come banging down my walls.  I love and appreciate all of my friends with all of my hea...

Today I feel Thankful for my children who are each so different and strong in their very own ways.  Don't get me wrong, they certainly stress me out and know how to push my buttons, but each of them has something magical about them.  I can be having the worst day ever and one of them will know just the right things to say or do that can change it all.  They remind me to live each day to the fullest and to take the time to have fun and be happy.  The four of them complete my life and give me the strength to press on each and every day.  I can see a bright future for each of them, they have such amazing potential and are scary smart.  Words could never express how proud of them I am and how much I love them.

I am starting Thankful Thursday's around here...  I have so much craziness in my life that I never stop and appreciate what I have.  So today is my first Thankful Thursday post. Today I am Thankful for my Mother, we have had many years of difficult times.  Times of not understanding one another or why there was so much hurt in our relationship.  For years I have been trying to write her a letter to know how I felt growing up and explain why I feel the way I do so many years later.  Well I finally wrote that letter, which became a short story.  I invited my mother down to stay with me and she read the letter.  It was an eye opening experience that i wouldn't trade for anything.  I gained insight and knowledge about her childhood and what life has been like for her.  I learned that the things she went through in life made her who she is and yes she made mistakes but that she has ALWAYS loved me no matter what has happened between us.  Sh...