Inner Strength - your survival instinct...
I am so Thankful that I have inner strength, the drive and determination that comes out at that last possible second when you think you have nothing left in you.
I am a pretty stubborn person and I won't "allow" things to come crashing down and take away my spirit, I just keep trucking on and on and on like the energizer bunny.
Something gets in my way and I either plow right through it like a linebacker or I stuff it down inside and try to deal with it later. I have to say with my current situation I have taken the bull by the horns and just done what needs to be done as far as getting a place of my own and taking on the bills etc, but the emotional side of it I have stuffed deep down inside of me and it keeps trying to rear it's ugly head the past couple of days. I am sad about the separation and about how things have turned out, it breaks my heart. But you go on, I have learned to let go of things. I am in control of what kind of life I lead and God is in control of how things will work out in my life. I am not going to just sit back and say "God, fix this" and do nothing, but I am leaving the things I can not control in his hands. I can not control my husband or the choices he makes, I can not change him. It is between him and God. I pray God can give my husband the inner strength to get through this rough patch in our lives and for him to deal with everything he has bottled up throughout his life.
For me, my inner strength is God carrying me through the trials when I can no longer handle them myself. Thank you God for loving me enough to carry me when I need it the most.
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