Where has the time gone...

Not sure how time has slipped through my fingers like it has over the past few months, it has been a crazy whirlwind of a life.  I have been so busy with work, the kids and my head.  It's like I have so much swimming in my head and I am not sure how to process it all or how to deal with the emotions that I have felt.  I am completely off of my Bipolar meds and only on my hormone replacement therapy which seems to be going well.  With being off the Bipolar meds I am experiencing feelings and moods that I am not used to and I have to learn how to handle and control them...  I am so used to being "borderline" and "blah" that these ups and downs are a shock to my system.  Now they are not the Bipolar Manic and Mania ups and downs, they are the ups and downs of life and the things going on around me, processing things and seeing how I really feel and what my opinions are.  It saddens me that I don't have anyone to share these with, but it is the first time in over 20 years I have been alone, without a male counterpart.  From the age of 13 I went from boyfriend to boyfriend, serious relationship to serious relationship and marriage to marriage.  It is time for me to learn about myself and to take care of myself and of course my children.  All will be well!

On a funny note my Dad told me that I should get out there and start dating...  he said he saw the commercial for "Christian Mingle" and thought of me and how I need to join or start going to the church singles group.  I told him "NO WAY"!