I feel like giving and trust work in tandem. GIVING In some areas giving is easy for me, sometimes it is too easy. I will give of my time, energy, strength, love (to those who are closest to me), determination and dedication to my workplace and commitments to others to my detriment and decline of health. Giving of my finances is another story. Money is tight and a negative bank account is a reoccurring factor the past couple of months. TRUST That is a hard one. Let down and disappointment one after another because I trusted people. They were probably the wrong people to trust and I probably expected more than I should have. Then again did I really expect more than I should have? Lately, over the years, my thought process has been if I don't invest in GOD, people or myself I can't be let down. I have been working on changing that thought process but it is not easy. I am not going to live in f...
Not sure how time has slipped through my fingers like it has over the past few months, it has been a crazy whirlwind of a life. I have been so busy with work, the kids and my head. It's like I have so much swimming in my head and I am not sure how to process it all or how to deal with the emotions that I have felt. I am completely off of my Bipolar meds and only on my hormone replacement therapy which seems to be going well. With being off the Bipolar meds I am experiencing feelings and moods that I am not used to and I have to learn how to handle and control them... I am so used to being "borderline" and "blah" that these ups and downs are a shock to my system. Now they are not the Bipolar Manic and Mania ups and downs, they are the ups and downs of life and the things going on around me, processing things and seeing how I really feel and what my opinions are. It saddens me that I don't have anyone to share these with, but it is the first ...
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