10:40 in the morning and it's already time for a Hershey Bar!

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It is 10:40 in the morning and it is most definitely time to bring out the big guns... a Hershey chocolate bar with almonds and maybe even a Pepsi!  I had such a stressful 4 day weekend and this morning starting off the work week in such a crappy way!  Why are men into playing games?  Why can't they grow a pair and be honest about what is going through their heads instead of tip toeing around us?  I want the honest to God truth so that I can make adjustments in my life and move in some sort of direction.  This hanging in a low flying/hovering pattern and walking on egg shells is for the birds.  My children are suffering just as much as I am, if not more, because they don't know what is going on and what is going to happen.  My youngest daughter said this morning, "Your the one that has the issues with Daddy, so why do I have to suffer".  I felt like screaming and crying...  I want to tell them I am not the one with the issues, it is your father who is being a jerk and playing games with all of our lives!  But the protective and fair Mother comes out and says, "I know honey and I am so sorry that you have to go through all of this".

I really need to take my lunch early, go home and take my meds so that I can focus on what is important and not this crappity crap crap!Photobucket

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