Tears are not permitted...

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I haven't been posting much because 1. I don't have internet at home and 2. I have been so swamped at work that I haven't been taking my 15 minute breaks.  Life has been very difficult over the past 2 weeks with living in a new place and trying to get situated and the emotional roller coaster I am on with my husband.  I found out last week that he is seriously considering "renting out" half of the house to a co-worker and her son.  Yup! You know damn well that a guy doesn't just decide to "rent out" half the house to a "co-worker".  He is so self absorbed right now that he isn't even thinking about how that is going to make his children feel.  Can you imagine going to stay with your Dad for the weekend and the house you lived in is completely redone and redecorated and has some strange woman and her kid in it!  I feel so bad for my children.  Once I processed what he is doing it hit me that he has probably built up a relationship with this woman and that she may be the reason he left.  It hurts so much and I can feel the tears welling up and stinging my eyes as I hold them back, because I cannot lose it in front of my children and I certainly cannot lose it at work.  So at the moment tears are not permitted... I know I need some ME time so that I can deal with everything that is bottled up, I just don't know when that will be.Photobucket

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Anonymous said…
I so feel your pain, Tiffany...Just remember, you are a smart, kind, attractive, and loving woman---wrap your arms around yourself and give yourself all the love you so deserve---have compassion and unconditional love for yourself. Don't let his actions make you feel bad about yourself--it's coming from inside him and has nothing to do with you really. xo
April 26, 2012
Hair Bows & Guitar Picks said…
Hang in there....soon enough you will be able to have some ME time and let the tears flow!

Love ya!
May 02, 2012
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