The Gift of Time
Yesterday I attended my first writing class. I have been wanting to attend for a while but free time is a limited commodity in my life. The atmosphere of the class is warm, welcoming and safe. The structure of the class is to greet everyone and go around to talk about what is happening in your world and to introduce yourself to any new people. There is a prompt given which could be selected before the class ever started or it could come from the discussions of the group that may be more beneficial. Once we receive the prompt we have 30-40 minutes to think and write what comes to mind. After our writing time, we go around the group and those that want to share can. It is amazing how one prompt manifests so many different ideas, stories and thoughts to be expressed. We offer input as to how the other pieces resonated with us, how they made us see things in a different light, or how the style of writing or words used made us feel what the writer was trying to portray.
The first part of our assignment was a prompt that came from a book by Louise Haye, "You Can Heal Your Life". Come up with 15 positive things about myself! When I first heard that I cringed, groaned and rolled my eyes. Are you kidding me! I can never find positive things about myself, fear and dread overcame me. As I sat and got out of my head and the deep dark caverns inside and remember what I have learned over the past year in therapy.
SO HERE IS MY LIST:
I am a loving mother.
I am a hard worker.
I am a good friend.
I am kind.
I am giving.
I am determined and courageous.
I am creative.
I am optimistic.
I am smart.
I am helpful.
I am a good listener.
I am honest.
I am open-minded.
I am thoughtful.
I am willing to get out of my comfort zone to grow and learn.
Our next task was to write, write what comes to mind or what this task or list triggered.
It's amazing what six months of intensive therapy and a few months to process it all can do for you. Before starting the process I never would have been able to sit down and write positive things about myself and actually believe them. I still have work to do and things to overcome but the veil of shame has been flapping in the breeze and now and then I can actually get out of my head and see reality. I see the good things in my life, the blessings amongst the trials, the trauma that I have overcome and the ability to stand up for myself even when it scares the hell out of me. I am finally learning what I stand for, what I want out of my life and what is truly important. For the first time ever, I am not overstressing the struggles and just working through them. I am bound and determined to love and enjoy my life. I am surrounded by good and healthy relationships. Even though I have come out of a third marriage, I am not embarrassed or ashamed like I thought I would be because I figured out what was healthy for me and my family.
Happiness is key.
peace of mind, tranquility.
sharing light and love.
I am still working on taking time out for myself but I see and feel the need and importance of it. I need to feed my soul, my heart and my mind with the good things life has so I can conquer the tough times.
I strive to be an example for my children in the good and the bad. It's okay for them to see me make mistakes and to find ways to overcome them.
Life is a teacher.
what you gain is up to you.
make the most of it.
I feel such hope and determination to figure this out. It's taken nearly 42 years to get here and it has to get better. I demand and put out into the universe that it will be better.
Deep breath in and out.
feel the peace come over me.
living my best life.
Use the gift of time.
authentically live this life.
we are important.
The first part of our assignment was a prompt that came from a book by Louise Haye, "You Can Heal Your Life". Come up with 15 positive things about myself! When I first heard that I cringed, groaned and rolled my eyes. Are you kidding me! I can never find positive things about myself, fear and dread overcame me. As I sat and got out of my head and the deep dark caverns inside and remember what I have learned over the past year in therapy.
SO HERE IS MY LIST:
I am a loving mother.
I am a hard worker.
I am a good friend.
I am kind.
I am giving.
I am determined and courageous.
I am creative.
I am optimistic.
I am smart.
I am helpful.
I am a good listener.
I am honest.
I am open-minded.
I am thoughtful.
I am willing to get out of my comfort zone to grow and learn.
Our next task was to write, write what comes to mind or what this task or list triggered.
It's amazing what six months of intensive therapy and a few months to process it all can do for you. Before starting the process I never would have been able to sit down and write positive things about myself and actually believe them. I still have work to do and things to overcome but the veil of shame has been flapping in the breeze and now and then I can actually get out of my head and see reality. I see the good things in my life, the blessings amongst the trials, the trauma that I have overcome and the ability to stand up for myself even when it scares the hell out of me. I am finally learning what I stand for, what I want out of my life and what is truly important. For the first time ever, I am not overstressing the struggles and just working through them. I am bound and determined to love and enjoy my life. I am surrounded by good and healthy relationships. Even though I have come out of a third marriage, I am not embarrassed or ashamed like I thought I would be because I figured out what was healthy for me and my family.
Happiness is key.
peace of mind, tranquility.
sharing light and love.
I am still working on taking time out for myself but I see and feel the need and importance of it. I need to feed my soul, my heart and my mind with the good things life has so I can conquer the tough times.
I strive to be an example for my children in the good and the bad. It's okay for them to see me make mistakes and to find ways to overcome them.
Life is a teacher.
what you gain is up to you.
make the most of it.
I feel such hope and determination to figure this out. It's taken nearly 42 years to get here and it has to get better. I demand and put out into the universe that it will be better.
Deep breath in and out.
feel the peace come over me.
living my best life.
Use the gift of time.
authentically live this life.
we are important.
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